Parvovirus

Well Josiah has come down with Parvovirus and his whole body is covered with welting rashes that are starting to break open. I wish that I could do something to help him out but am having a hard time finding anything that really helps him feel better. He is itching and poor guy has spent the past couple days in his room so that it doesnt get passed to Autumn. He is being a really good boy for having to stay in his room and we went and bought him a TV so that he could watch his movies and keep occupied during this horrific battle between his immune system and his body!

Other than that spending hours upon hours working on school work and hoping that I will eventually start to get these darn programs. I am finding them to be really hard to work though.

Horrible Day

So today started out pretty good then I get to work and all hell breaks loose! I am so tired of people thinking that they can run all over me and that I will always just keep my mouth shut! This is beginning to not be the case anymore. I think that if you want to think you are better than everyone else and think that you can do what you want and treat people like shit you should really go F*** yourself because quite frankly I dont have the time nor the patience to deal with it anymore! I am coming to my end rope and soon I will be telling you where you can shove it!

My Greatest Accomplishment

Someone asked me today what I thought my greatest accomplishment was. I of course said my two beautiful kids. They then asked me why? Out of everything you have done in your life why do you think that is the biggest accomplishment. Their other comment was that people have kids all the time. I looked at this person and said maybe "you" can have kids when you want and how you want but I cant. I have to go through a grueling, sometimes heartbreaking, money taking process. I dont get to say lets make love and make a baby. Instead I get to say "do we hav all the supplies we need, is the sperm thawed out" and then I get to be humiliated and sit with my legs open and have my parnter put someones elses sperm up there and hope that we do it right. Our lovemaking to make a baby isnt the same. It never will be. So yes my greatest accomplishment in life is my kids!