I am waiting for the day that my beautiful little girl will sleep through the night and I feel like that day will never come! Gotta love teething I feel so bad for her yet feel so bad for the fact that I cant get any sleep! Rhonda and I are waking up every 1 to 2 hours to a very unhappy girl!
I got a job at Target but really am finding that it isnt worth it. I hate being away from my kiddos and honestly I barely make enough to cover bills!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Shedd Aquarium
This weekend we decided to take a small group and go to the Shedd Aquarium in Chicago,IL. The trip did not even come close to turning out how I had wanted it to. I had the whole trip planned so that Josiah would have someone to keep him company and in the end we just ended up getting ditched! But anywho the aquarium was awesome and had alot of animals and ended up being pretty fun!
Thursday, March 17, 2011
A Little bit of this and a little bit of that!
So I think its hilarious how we get these blogs and have every intention of keeping up with them but realize that life hits and a blog is the last thing you think about doing at the end of a long day of changing diapers, working and everything else inbetween.
So I was at a jump center the other day and had my son standing in line. Mind you this is the first time he has really gone anywhere where he had to be courteous of others and stand in wait just like everyone else. Well this dad comes up and all six of his girls go in front of my son. First I wasnt to upset and then he had two more jump in front of him. I asked him politely to move his kids behind my son as he had been waiting for 5 minutes already to go and if he waited for all 8 of these girls to go he would have been waiting forever. He said "Oh, they are just kids its not big deal". My son looked at me and said when is it going to be my turn momma and how come they can get in front of me but I cant. I looked at the guy and I said I dont care if they are just kids. I am teaching my son manners and allowing you to have all your kids cut in front of mine is not helping the situation. I asked him again to move them behind my son. He said well there are two more kids behind him now. I told him that he should have thought about that before he let all his kids go in front of mine. He huffed and moved them behind the other kids. I dont feel like I was being mean because my son is three his kids were like 10 and 11 years old. They should have known better than to cut in front of other kids. I mean seriously dude, teach your kids some damn common courtesy!
So another rant. My mom has leukemia and wants me to feel bad for her and wants to make me feel guilty for not letting my kids see her. I have this need to protect my kids from everything she ever put me through and I feel like she is a bad person someone that I dont want my kids to ever meet. To me its like taking my kids to a prison to visit a pedefile. Its just not something a mother would do. I dont know the whole situation is just ercking me and I dont kjnow what to do.
Alright, last rant. I went to get a cortisone shot in my sacrimal joint. Holy cow did that hurt like all hell! I had to lay on a table on my belly with my butt cheecks all hanging out flapping in the wind! It was great(said with the most amount of sarcasm). Not to mention them then sticking three differant needles in my ass that felt like a crowbar pulling my hips apart! Alright end of rant for today!
So I was at a jump center the other day and had my son standing in line. Mind you this is the first time he has really gone anywhere where he had to be courteous of others and stand in wait just like everyone else. Well this dad comes up and all six of his girls go in front of my son. First I wasnt to upset and then he had two more jump in front of him. I asked him politely to move his kids behind my son as he had been waiting for 5 minutes already to go and if he waited for all 8 of these girls to go he would have been waiting forever. He said "Oh, they are just kids its not big deal". My son looked at me and said when is it going to be my turn momma and how come they can get in front of me but I cant. I looked at the guy and I said I dont care if they are just kids. I am teaching my son manners and allowing you to have all your kids cut in front of mine is not helping the situation. I asked him again to move them behind my son. He said well there are two more kids behind him now. I told him that he should have thought about that before he let all his kids go in front of mine. He huffed and moved them behind the other kids. I dont feel like I was being mean because my son is three his kids were like 10 and 11 years old. They should have known better than to cut in front of other kids. I mean seriously dude, teach your kids some damn common courtesy!
So another rant. My mom has leukemia and wants me to feel bad for her and wants to make me feel guilty for not letting my kids see her. I have this need to protect my kids from everything she ever put me through and I feel like she is a bad person someone that I dont want my kids to ever meet. To me its like taking my kids to a prison to visit a pedefile. Its just not something a mother would do. I dont know the whole situation is just ercking me and I dont kjnow what to do.
Alright, last rant. I went to get a cortisone shot in my sacrimal joint. Holy cow did that hurt like all hell! I had to lay on a table on my belly with my butt cheecks all hanging out flapping in the wind! It was great(said with the most amount of sarcasm). Not to mention them then sticking three differant needles in my ass that felt like a crowbar pulling my hips apart! Alright end of rant for today!
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Parvovirus
Well Josiah has come down with Parvovirus and his whole body is covered with welting rashes that are starting to break open. I wish that I could do something to help him out but am having a hard time finding anything that really helps him feel better. He is itching and poor guy has spent the past couple days in his room so that it doesnt get passed to Autumn. He is being a really good boy for having to stay in his room and we went and bought him a TV so that he could watch his movies and keep occupied during this horrific battle between his immune system and his body!
Other than that spending hours upon hours working on school work and hoping that I will eventually start to get these darn programs. I am finding them to be really hard to work though.
Other than that spending hours upon hours working on school work and hoping that I will eventually start to get these darn programs. I am finding them to be really hard to work though.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Horrible Day
So today started out pretty good then I get to work and all hell breaks loose! I am so tired of people thinking that they can run all over me and that I will always just keep my mouth shut! This is beginning to not be the case anymore. I think that if you want to think you are better than everyone else and think that you can do what you want and treat people like shit you should really go F*** yourself because quite frankly I dont have the time nor the patience to deal with it anymore! I am coming to my end rope and soon I will be telling you where you can shove it!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
My Greatest Accomplishment
Someone asked me today what I thought my greatest accomplishment was. I of course said my two beautiful kids. They then asked me why? Out of everything you have done in your life why do you think that is the biggest accomplishment. Their other comment was that people have kids all the time. I looked at this person and said maybe "you" can have kids when you want and how you want but I cant. I have to go through a grueling, sometimes heartbreaking, money taking process. I dont get to say lets make love and make a baby. Instead I get to say "do we hav all the supplies we need, is the sperm thawed out" and then I get to be humiliated and sit with my legs open and have my parnter put someones elses sperm up there and hope that we do it right. Our lovemaking to make a baby isnt the same. It never will be. So yes my greatest accomplishment in life is my kids!
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